Being reasonably cringe vol 2

One good connection > 100 people cringed out

In the best traditions of over-engineering and now proper over-meta-thinking there is a thread of thoughts in my head that is probably hotter than the most controversial threads of Reddit these days.

How do you fight fear of being reasonably public?

How do you make yourself press that “publish” button that will go your post either go viral or be pelted with rotten tomatoes, or even worse - be lost in the depths of a digital forest forever?

I have been trying to answer this question via previous writeup that has been successfully shelved and will never see a light. Why? Because it was rather a lie. By trying to invent the framework of “being reasonably cringe” I have found myself in the dead end! Why? Because I already had this framework for something like 8+ years and realized its existence only now!

How’s that?

Key realization here has been that my “publicness” is rather a function of things I am doing at the moment and their alignment with my beliefs system.

publicness = f (activity | beliefs)

Seemingly simple formula. Yet the catalyst of meta breakthrough: When things that you are doing is not aligned with things that you deeply believe into - then fear of failure, procrastination and other dark mechanics are in their shiniest. And no framework will help.

In my case it rather was the zero-sum games of quant trading stuff conflicting with a deep desire to create, inspire others and move forward as an aligned wavefront of cracked individuals.

That is why an initiative to write about something consistently has been failing through that zero-sum games era. But before that, back in 2020-2022, during “Backend and B2B Sales” era - modest writeups of mine have gained something like 250k unique views on “habr”.

Flow

Rebuilding myself from the ashes after emotionally devastating zero-sum games era (quant) I have at first faced the same struggles of telling what and how I build. But then I have noticed that without “regularizations” this “sharing and telling” thing just flows. Flows in a most natural way without any micromanagement and planning needed.

Before that realization I have tried to formulate a framework “Being reasonably cringe vol 1” that was planned as some sort of procedure in order to make myself write consistently and be much more resilient towards failures and setbacks.

Something like this has been formulated in vol 1

The proposal of my overnight subconscious subagent has been something - "let's don't give a fuck about our fears and use Ridiculous charm over them - accepting being reasonably cringe as per our public presence"
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Being reasonable cringe in order to stay true to myself and let the serendipity nets neutrino detectors be calibrated towards the proper input.

One good connection > 100 people cringed out

This thought has came to me 1 week after this write up has been created. And by the best traditions of self and meta irony - not published! Funny enough, right? Post about “it is cool to publish” ended up collecting digital dust. But this thought rather became the last missing puzzle and an elegant bridge to the Serendipity Nets I am building. Proper first principles grounding per se. So I have added this quote at the top of write up here. Slightly polished and kicked publish!